Ribbons and polka dots.

2012-01-09T08:39:00.000-08:00

planning my online store now.
need proper planning because i dont want to screw anything up.
that's about it, stay tune for more though, ciaos.

1,2,3.

2011-09-22T09:38:00.000-07:00

Bored and feeling random at 12:38 am.

1)Bb's name on my hand using an uv pen!!
2)A long lost dress from OSF I found in my cupboard, okay that was really random.
3)Another random photo taken quite some time back with BFF.

Ps: I've lost the blogging vibe, mind you.

2011-09-10T10:48:00.000-07:00

I think this is like super meaningful....................... "for this period, there may be alittle changes in your life; noone to wake you up, eat with you, quarrel with you. you may not get used to it, but after awhile, the smile you are having now, will be back eventually".

So yup, as usual I got real pissed off and irritated easily. Wish I was a better person at times. Someone who could control my emotions better and not let anyone else affect me mmhmm but sadly I just couldn't. Wish my face wasn't my face too cause I wanna have the perfect face but sadly noone is perfect. As perfect and fake as barbie. How ironic when people wanna be complete but yet do not wanna be fake. Then again, if they wanna be original, how would they define perfection?

"I kept thinking to myself; I had enough, enough of stabbing myself in the heart".

GLOOMY DAYS

2011-08-13T10:46:00.000-07:00

I can practically shut down my blog but ugh, I guess I can just blog to myself now since it's like dead. So anyway, shit happens...... At the lowest point in my life now. If only time could rewind, my boyfriend would be with me, I won't be home on a Saturday night, BLOGGING. I would then have someone to cuddle to bed with, a shoulder to lean on, someone who would do almost everything with me, but I'm all alone now. 2days more to his birthday, no wait, it's past 12am so it should be 1 more day to his birthday but I can't celebrate it with him this year :'(

At the same time, I'm glad to see so many of my friends and his friends showing concern to the both of us. We will be strong, and stronger than ever, with all of your loves. During times like these I can really tell who were the one we called, "friends" :)

Please return to my side asap, I really couldn't make it without you. Everyone is waiting for your return. Please be safe alright. Whoever who sees this, I hope you could pray for him too.

Till then,
Xoxo

2011-07-04T09:27:00.000-07:00

Just did my nails.
Lefty> righty cos' imma right hander.

2011-06-29T08:45:00.000-07:00

So......... me and my parent's room phone cannot be used to place a phone call anymore. What's wrong with singtel? All these years it's fine but now all of a sudden we can only use the living room's phone. How inconvenient.... The amount of talktime in the house is getting lesser. Maybe this is one way for singtel to "cut-cost". How irritating. And my phone bill gets higher now..........

HOLID4YS

2011-06-20T21:41:00.000-07:00

So.... the holidays are here and this break, i'm determined to tidy up my room, or maybe decorate my room a little. Start buying materials for the boy's birthday stuff. Yes i know it's still quite some time away from his birthday but i can't help planning alittle here and there. It's good to plan ahead, no? Just got back home last night, slept all the way till now, and am about to prepare and head out soon. Booked tickets for green lantern at 1930, yups.

Anyway i thought of starting a formspring account but i doubt i would have time to manage it. You see, my site is already dead. Follow me @violetsarebluee for more regular updates @twitter >_<

Update soon.
Ps: 21st, another month to go.. :(

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2011-05-16T04:53:00.000-07:00

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H4NDFOOTMOUTHDIS34S3.

2011-05-11T21:06:00.000-07:00

So i guess those who are following me on twitter would know that i'm on a "4day long medical leave". To me 4days meant alot because... 1)my classmates are all mugging so badly for the exams 2)i had absolute nth to do at home everyday except eating and sleeping and using of laptop 3)i was bored till the extend of "thinking too much" about my sickness and ended up crying like a crybaby 4)hence, i had to resort to "sleeping pills" everyday to prevent myself from thinking that much 5)today's suppose to be my accounting paper!!!!! So i really need a breather, but i can't go anywhere since i'm sick, and the fact that i can't eat much, leads to a weak body system, so whenever i stood up, i had a slight headache. Tomorrow marks the day i'm "suppose" to return to school cause my mc's up. But judging from my body system, i doubt i'm able to return to school tmr. But what to do? Boredom kills. Shall visit the doctor again tmr if i'm nowhere better. Hopefully, i'd recover by tonight and head to school tmr because i miss my clique a whole lot! And not to mention, i'd definitely not want to miss out on the largest flea happening on sat by the FLB!

Would be doing an advertorial l8r on!

USS

2011-04-26T05:54:00.000-07:00

Home is a place where we should be comfortable with. But I don't see myself being comfortable in my "home". Uggh, shouldn't blog about this but i need to rant you see.

Okay, pictures of USS with the boy! Stayed over at his crib the day before and we went janice's place for her bday celebration, was damn fun when all of us get to hang out tgt agn! Gna blog abt it in the next post. The next day we woke up quite late for USS and ended up entering the place at like 3pm?? LOL OKAY WHUT.

Cab back to the boy's crib and the boy send me home the nxt day, then he waited for me to wash up and stuff, and we head out agn. There goes my AWESOME WEEKEND :)

Enjoy your weekends cause the weekdays are like a battle, xoxo.

GOOD DAYS R OVAL.

2011-04-06T09:22:00.000-07:00

So, the holidays are gonna be over in a blink of an eye. Well, every single day i've been going out and i hardly had time to speak to my parents. Been going over to the boy's crib almost everyday, or we'll head to town or smthg tgt. Days had never been so great before. The bad pt about the both of us being tgt is that we tend to care too much therefore we can quarrel over the slightest thing, and made up in awhile. We could even say the harshest words to each other but never meant it at all, and ended up taking back our words and cry and such.. I think the both of us are too similar in characters, we always use the same "stunts" on each other. Funny thing is, after all the crazy stuffs, we still remain as superglue.

Ytd was suppose to be 5411 @USS with my girls but i couldn't make it at the very last minute. So sorry but you girls should know that i love y'all still as much! Can't wait to see y'all when sch reopens! Let me post their photos at USS k? HEHEHE.

My lovely girls~

DREAD. SCH. SO. SO. MUCH.
CAN. THE. BLOODY. HOLIDAYS. LAST. FOREVER?

Anyway i've been pondering whether to conti schooling or not. Seriously pointless. Gotten back my results. So disappointing. This time round even though i've improved but i'm sure i've put in lots of effort as compared to the previous semester. End up, after trying so hard, my results improve SLIGHTLY only. Angry or not you tell me? SO MUCH FOR STUDYING. Been thinking about where life can get me to if this continues as well. I can't even see my future, i don't even know what i'm interested in, or what i want to be when i grow up. Maybe it's time to think. But then again, some dreams are too unrealistic. SIGH, LIFE IS SUCH.

Life is pretty much about the same old routine everyday isn't it? My life just sucked. So sick of going through the same old thing everyday, procrastinating from doing certain things, restricted to do certain things, and lastly my all-time laziness. Dreading reality so much, dreams are unrealistic, yet nth lasts forever. Esp good things are short-lived. SUCK THAT. Okay enough of me being all emotional before i bore everyone out.

Till then, goodbye, xoxo.

2011-03-18T20:33:00.000-07:00

Dead blog. I'm more active @facebook or you can also follow me @violetsarebluee (twitter). Anyway its the holidays now. And everyday seems so busy. I'm seriously having lack of sleep. Fyi, i'm on the way to work and then prolly head to USS after that. Nightlife, work, spending time with the loved ones. Pictures will be up next week. Ciaos!

BADBADAY COMES IN A CHUNK

2011-02-13T06:30:00.000-08:00

Okay I think I lost the blogging vibe. Totally don't know what to blog about. Nothing interesting lately. Or maybe there is? Where should I start from? Maybe I shall blog about today? How today sucks, how today was one of the worst day of my life and how I know it sucked so much was because I WROTE ON MY DIARY TODAY. Okay lah, I know no big deal about writing on a diary. But to me, it always is a big deal! I only wrote on my diary on "rainy days" which means to say, when I'm rlly rlly rlly very upset, and I always tear while I wrote on my diary. CONFIRM. So ya lor, today rlly suck max! Let's start from 12midnight of today okay? From 12am I was talking on the phone with someone and I've been crying from like 12mn all the way to, let's say, 4am or so? Then when I woke up from my sleep, I quarrelled with mommy because of money issue. Then I cried, AGAIN. Not because of the money issue but because she made me feel so touched. Okay lah, I know I love her ALOT. But continue reading on. In the noon, I went over to x's place. Then after that, went to collect my contact lenses. Cry AGAIN. So embarrassing lor! In the shop somemore! The person must be thinking, this person siao one lor. Then when I went home, mommy screwed up my spaghetti because she forgot to add some ingredients. I threw a big fuss and nearly went mad at her. YES LITERALLY MAD. Then what's new? Cry again lor. Then I was damn damn damn guilty about it. Today was the worst day ever.

And if you would like to know why I was so upset with you, here it is:
-i don't want to always end off a quarrel with just a sorry, and history keeps repeating
-and because whenever the word "sry" is involved, i'll just let it pass and.... same thing agn.

PS: I've got so much to say, but I find it pointless.
Cause no matter what I say, you'll try to make it right for yourself.

PPS: Or is it true that everyone in my life are meant to disappoint me?
The more impt you are to me, the more you disappoint me? Is this the way things are suppose to be? I shouldn't say so much. Dlted all tht i'm suppose to say. Guess I needed a break.

2011-01-18T04:48:00.000-08:00

I'm on wordpress.com lately.
Will be doing short updates there instead.
If you're following me on twitter you may know the web
or you could ask me for it, lost the blogging vibe lately.
Anyway, cny is approaching! Cheers.

Boredom kills

2011-01-14T04:28:00.000-08:00

xmas @town:

So Imma keep this space alive by updating more frequently. Today's a friday, and I'm at home. Been forever since I stayed at home on a friday night. Due to my awesome friends who knew we couldn't make it but yet leave it till today. I really dislike having my weekends unplan and keeping it till the last minutes. I don't know is it just me or what? But I just dislike screwed up plans.

OHYA. You guys should rly take a look at all her videos on clicknetwork.
Some of the videos for example the one on boob job rly got me laughing.
http://www.clicknetwork.tv/watch.aspx?c=3&p=25&v=380 SEE SEE SEE! She quite QT what.

CNY's approaching. Where to shop? Everyone in town is almost wearing the same stuff bought from common places, online clothings, some not true to picture, some sizes don't tally at all. Sadly, this is life in singapore. Everyone is just so common.
Whenever you walk afew steps down the street, you can literally saw a handful of people wearing the almost same kind of clothings, sometimes same brand, same pattern even. And nowadays almost everyone has an iphone, ipad, itouch blah blah blah.

Exactly one month from now (I think) it's gonna be the time whereby couples get to cuddle tgt, go for a movie, exchange sweet little gifts. Yes yes, valentine's day LOR! Then singles how ah? All coop at home and tuck in bed and sleep the day away! AWESOME. Of course not lah! Who gurantees that you'd be attached every single year on valentine's day man! So better not forget your friends every year if you don't want to be a loner on v's day. Actually valentine's day celebrate with friends also quite awesome one leh. I rmb in secondary school we girls even had a last minute present exchange lor. Rly is damn last minute. We all just got whatever we could find in our house and put it in a box/wrap it up. Quite cute okay. Till now the "gifts" still in my hse lor! So maybe girlfriends should rly celebrate v's day tgt. Awesome? Awesome!

PS: All the above was purely crap.
PPS: I was way too bored thus I need to keep myself occupied by blogging.
PPPS: Korean dramas and GG is like the SEX nowadays :)

BACK2SCHOOL

2011-01-09T06:17:00.000-08:00

HELLO!School's just in afew hours time. Enough of having all the fun. Been going out almost everyday throughtout the entire holiday. 2010 ended, 2011 came. Lots of changes in my life, from adapting to a new life to the most shocking news ever. ALL THE CHANGES. Been thinking about this lately: "Why do things that came into our life aren't things that we wanted?" VICE VERSA.

Yesterday was the most drama day ever. Never seen someone as drama as that before. Anyway I'm pretty sure that when school starts, my life's gonna be dull and mundane. Made quite afew promises to myself, like attending sch regularly, being on time for school and etc. But I doubt many of us will keep to it just like how we promised ourselves that we'll be better next year. But after some time, the promises and goals are forgotten and there goes all the new year resolutions.

Sometimes you need to go through terrible times, have a pause in your life and then you'll be able to think better. I'm kinda envy of each and everyone around me nowadays. And I don't know why.Need to turn in soon. I don't want to be late on the first day of school, pretty please.

PS: The previous post is fake. LIKE DAMN FAKE. If you can't yet sense my "joke".

Gudn9t everyone!!☺☺☺

Last day of the year

2010-12-31T02:20:00.000-08:00

Hi. It's been some time since I've came back to this space. Might be shutting down this space some time soon. Everyone's been ranting how a bore Xmas and New Year Eve countdown was. My christmas countdown was pretty fun at some friend's place with the perfect company. Still no idea where I'm gng for New Year Eve countdown later though. Either town or movie? Anyway how's your Xmas celebration and New year countdown? Did y'all have fun with your friends and family or receive lots pressies? :)

Anyway here's my resolution for year 2011:
-To be happy
-To do well in my studies
-To go USA in march!!
-To get over all these shit
-And to quit xxxxxxx
Lastly, I wish you'd be happy, whereever you are and whoever you may be with.

2010-12-20T22:13:00.000-08:00

I had to keep telling myself, that even though she took him away, its okay. Bcos he's just a new him now. No longer lyk the one i used to know. His character changed alot. But at the same time, i assured myself that you would have known better. You should know that im the kind of girl who will insist in what i want. Sometimes i tried not to insist. As much as i don't want to, i had to. Bcos my heart nv stops bleeding. The best part about everything is seeing you change. Rly, so disappointing. If you could this now, what makes you think in future it won't happen. Oh, and rmb, it's nv the end.

I've just woke up not long ago. Waiting for wc to wake up and we shall head to ikea to nomnom. Meanwhile, should i cook myself smth to eat?

2010-11-26T11:14:00.000-08:00

Ayyeeeeeeee so pissed! Social life> anything else??!!!!!!!???!!!

So many things on going. Do not conclude anything so easily. Or trust someone so easily. Humans are fond of lying. At the end of the day, you do not know if the one you love the most or trust the most, may be the one who lied to you.

Many things to get for this month. I must get 'em asap. I want it and I will have it~
Enjoy while you still can now. Because it will soon be revealed- to the ignorant unknown.

You're duped, too. Bitch.

2010-11-15T04:01:00.000-08:00

Darling, nothing last forever. If you could do this to me, what makes you think she won't receive the same thing in future? Nobody knows about the future, but I definitely would not want to see you regret like how I did. Rmb that what goes around comes around. When you're bitchy, there will definitely be someone out there who is even "bitchier". So don't ever compare. Silence doesn't means no action would be taken. In fact, silence is golden. If you get what i mean.

Okay enough of all that crap, gna head down for a stick now, bye!

2010-11-08T08:01:00.000-08:00

Silence is golden, don't cha think so, baby? ♥
Lately my life's like a drama, with all the actors/resses in my life, & that makes you a calefare , an extra. Hehe. Work during the weekend was so awesome, get to be pampered by my loves. Every single day thy wld buy breakfast and mineral water and place it on the table for me. Felt so loved. Cnt w8 to work with them agn this weekend. And thr's this someone who wld got so worked up when i club with the girls +guys after work. He'd start lecturing me non-stop. I can't believe he's gng to this extend. But now, we seems so d.i.s.t.a.n.t. I was so touched, but now it all feels wierd. Whr has my good bud gone to? Anyway it's okay, im still looking forward to this weekend. I hope it all turns out well. FRI, we went novena for dinner and also to chill. Msia on sat was love!! Then it was SUNDAY, last minute desicion to head to dbg for aston. HSH pretty early tht day cause thr's sch the next day 8)

And i'm kinda suprised by the people who've been reading my @twitter or my blog.
Imma be more careful with my words. Y'know why? Dogs tht don't bark, bites. Get my drift? Gudn9t y'all, i'm hungry, lyk agn. Bttr slp before i start heading to the kitchen for food!!!!

THIS TIME IT'S REAL

2010-10-25T09:08:00.000-07:00

THERE'S MORE, BUT IMPOSSIBLE FOR ME TO UPLOAD ALL RIGHT?
HAHAH, TOO MUCH TO BE UPLOADED.
UNLIKE SOME PATHETIC PEOPLE, UPLOAD HERE, UPLOAD THERE, STILL THE SAME FEW PICS.
OPEN YOUR EYES AND SEE UGH.
SOMETHINGS ARE NOT USING 1-2MONTHS OF SUGARCOATED WORDS CAN REPLACE ONE UGH.
I'M NOT GNA GIVE UP.
BBY TOLD ME THIS: "NO MATTER WHAT, DON'T GIVE UP, EVEN IF U GIVE UP, DON'T LET THE REASON BE HER".
YOU TOLD ME TO WIN YOU BCK.
YES, IMMA TRY, TILL SHE DIE.
ONE DAY, ONE FUCKING DAY I SWEAR SHE'LL EVER REGRET KNOWING YOU.
DON'T TEST ME SLUT.
I HAD ENOUGH OF ALL THESE SHIT!!
OKAY I SHLD CHILL, LTR SOMEONE GO BACKSTAB BEHIND MY BACK, ME SCARED ^0^

Cherish

2010-10-18T04:50:00.000-07:00

Dear diary.

Day 2, I was so lost. My heart and my mind were all in a mess. Tell me, if it's real? Some truth are best not to be known, isn't it? Although afterall, i lose you, but still, the truth made me realise how much you meant to me. I regretted not expressing my feelings earlier. Now it all seems pointless. If I were to amend my mistakes, will you let me start over again? Will you know how I felt when you walk away. Do you know that it's not I don't care, it's because I wanted your attention. Yes, i'm deprive of your attention. Actually, I don't even know what I really wanted anymore. Why do I only learn after falling, each and every time? I really don't wna fall anymore, each and every bit is killing me now. Why are promises meant to be broken?
"We look for different things in a relationship", I really wish you were different, because I thought you were "the one".

With love, xxx.

You and i, think differently.

Meaningless

2010-10-12T02:11:00.000-07:00

我好想念你,但已经不重要.
Wow, how naive i thought i was after hanging the phonecall with you seconds ago. Hopes were gone. I thought you were xxx at me, but actually you are xxx. Why everyone say i very emotional? Why everyone say i blackface? I look very unhappy meh??! No what. Errrrrm, i just wish that life would be different, really different.

Weeks ago was her birthday, went town, had pizzahut, clarke quay at night with the rest. More photos to be uploaded but i lazy laaa~ I seriously need some motivation, i cannot go on this way anymore. My life is just plain boring.... Maybe i should quit studying, like seriously......

Germaine's birthday on sunday, the last day before sch officially starts, was fun. 2nd day of school today, i was hell tired, yet i was happy, and sad, and yet happy agn when someone lent me his gucci lanyard HAHAHA.

I want so many things. But at the same time i just can't get so many things too. Ugggh, my life just sucks. You wouldn't wna read anymore so bye.

FAILED

2010-10-06T18:55:00.000-07:00

I failed my gpa laaaaaa ccb. Gng sentosa later. Eh you know what? Nth helps now. My gpa jitao cui please. How to enjoy later? How to enjoy tmr? No wayyyy.

"If only.."

2010-10-05T10:33:00.000-07:00

Okay i've just created tumblr. but i rly got no idea how to use this shit? maybe when i know how to use it, it shall be my daily space to update my feelings. Today i'm happy, yet at the same time, the feeling sucks. noone will see through me if i continue to pretend that i'm happy. because noone rly knew or asked how i feel. You know what? the more you treat me good, the more it pains me because.... crying doesn't works anymore. i think i've got used to holding back, that i'm handling it so well now. whyyyy?

2010-09-29T05:28:00.000-07:00

THE ONE IN BABY PINK?

this?!!

OR some leopard pwintz??!

OR smth simple lyk thattt!!

OR smth comfy?!!
Been keeping all these to myself, have not been telling anyone much about all the stuff related to this, guess it'll be over after awhile?? Right or not. It all takes time, isn't it? I still don't admit it, guess pride is more impt but i'm proved wrong all over again.

Shld not frequent ph that much anymore, it's gettin' boring. Town is boring too, everywhere is just boring. Today is just sleep eat and rot infront of the com, days lyk this are simple and gr8 too.. Too lazy to head out even though thr are plans today.. I wish i wasn't me, i wish i was someone better, i wish i was someone better enough, better enough for you. I wish you wouldn't get used to it. Maybe you've got over it. Just LIKE THAT. That easy.

Anyway wht's wrongg with my blogger layout? All the layouts are so messy. I got no idea how to make it back to the previous o' one. I need money to shop, maybe it'll make me feel a tad bit better? No doubt.

Jealousy

2010-09-18T11:23:00.000-07:00

SOME RANDOMNESS.
Trust no bitches. Can't get the grapes say the grapes sour? Finding all means to bring 'em down? Such a turnoff. Grow up like, hello??! Saying one thing yet doing another. Speak & fucking reflect on yourself. WHY ALL THE SILLY ACTS FRM YOU?
Ps: Pictures, enjoy :)
Pps: Heavy eyebags, lack of sleep!!

/div>

2010-09-13T05:28:00.000-07:00

I know i shouldn't be blogging now because.... i've a paper tmr, and i know nuts about AFD. Prolly gna flunk it. Today's BEV paper was alright, made a few careless mistake though, i strike out the correct answer and filled in with the wrong answer.

But anyhow, i need to rant so badly nowwwww..... because my ___day is gna be ruined!! I've been looking forward for that day for so long, i've told almost everyone around me about it. No, it's not cancelled but, i can't say. LOL! BUT ANYWAY TMR I'VE DECIDED TO GO JOGGING/SWIMMING AFTER MY PAPER TO SHED SOME FATS. (that's if i can keep to it, hopefully) need to lose weight badly.

Life is getting boring, infact sosooosoooooo boring!!! What else can you do beside earning money and spending them. Oh well, at least after tmr, it's the sch holidays agn! Need to start mugging now even though i'm so lazy. I want 2 sleep ;(

Pre-birthday post

2010-09-02T09:44:00.000-07:00

A quick update of my life before my lappy runs out of battery, and i need sleep so badly now!! Pictures speaks a million words k? More photos still in sarah's dslr, for more, please take a look at my facebook, nights all!

2AUGUSTIE

2010-08-29T01:47:00.000-07:00

Hiiii, so today i was suppose to head to town with ivy and co but i decided not to since there's sch tmr (and i'm broke), and worst thing that i saw when i bloghopped around is......... Everyone's blogging abt how anxious and serious thy're abt their schwrk etc, yet my schwrk's still not done and tmr's the DEADLINE. I'm so dead now. I feel stressful for this upcoming wk because.......... shall keep it to myself instead :(

PS:/ Bear no heartache anymore pretty plz.

2010-08-26T05:33:00.000-07:00

Ladies night @ph with ivy jurist kenny abigail ridhwan yesterday.
Left home around 7pm and we waited for kenny to fetch us for pretty long.
Abi and ridhwan cab bck after the party and we headed to bedok for supper after everything ended and one by one the guys drove all of us home.

Alot of things 've been happening. I don't want it to be this way too :'(

Dilemma.Drama.Distress.

2010-08-23T07:42:00.000-07:00

Mad sweet some time ago on top!!

Webcamz. On msn with w now, bfbfbf. Miss her though. Been long since we last catch up, prolly during her birthday chalet.

Mac @anchorvale ytd with @manthasoh @lulukoh @lovelielust @lielovelust germaine shermain and afew others. Wasn't that happy at the later part of the study date, kept sneezing lyk nobody's business. Weak me. Left the place at night and head home to bath and all before deciding to head over to @abigailoh's place to ton. Tomyam cup noodle for me and mac delivery for her. Gab came over not long after. Jalan kayu as usual for breakie, after that @abigailoh head over to my place while i fall asleep.

Gna remove my fugly nail colours and have a nap now and abigail will prolly hit my place past midnight ltr on.

Been a week. Same old sentence from ya: "i don't wna quarrel with ya." To be honest, last night at abi's was a disaster, nope, the companion was great. However i tried to be truthful to you yet things turn out to be worst. It was your friend i'm with and yet you don't even trust us. You told me these: "I don't let you go out, you say you prepare alrdy, i let you go out, cause i scared you at home you'll be bored, end up you give me all these shit." You said i don't care abt your problems at all. It always ends with a quarrel.

Stalker or shameless? Defensive much

2010-08-19T12:06:00.000-07:00

So much disagreement, so much for giving in to her boyfriend, at the end of the day, this is what she gets. I'd rlly lyk to ask you a qustion: "What would you do if you were her?" i doubt you'd be half as strong..

With hate, Stalker.

Tired of pretending

2010-08-18T10:32:00.000-07:00

MET UP WITH J AND A TODAY. KINDA AWESOME CAUSE IT'S BEEN LONG SINCE I LAST SAW J.

GAVE THIS A TRY:

It was a happy day. However i can still feel the stress within me. Decided to make myself alittle happier by spending on so many unecessary stuff, guilty much now :/ "Studied" at the national library with the girls. Webcam and talking session instead! Dinner was fishball noodles with abigail and i swear the fishballz damn awesome (poink poink!) Met gabriel at sk to chitchat and he sent me home after that. Bathe and mask! I'm gng to slp early tonight, i swear. Same scenario again today.

JUST TO SUM UP: FML. SHOULD I RLLY BE HAPPY NOW? I DOUBT SO. WHY IS IT THAT LOVE CAN TURN INTO A DISTANCE IN LYK AFEW SECONDS? WHY CAN YOU PRETEND SO WELL?..............
WHY DO I ENJOY LIVING IN YOUR LIES?.. WHY DO I..?

Enough of those emo shit. I'm hungry agn. Shall boil myself a cup noodle and rlly SLEEP!!

You're the best thing in my life

2010-08-16T07:56:00.000-07:00

Twice, it's still the same. I've proven to myself something already. At least now i know it's true that no matter what everyone will get tired one day. But still, i feel silly.

Last minute cancelled my plan to go town with the girls cause i overslept. Abigail came over my place and we went jalan kayu for prata dinner before heading to cp to meet shermin. Home sweet home around 10pm. Kelmond just called to meet up tmr with the rest prolly @10am, doubt i can wake up on time. Gotta slp early tonight.

My days sucks. One word- Stressful, to sum it up. "With you, i don't need to be afraid of crying myself to sleep, i don't need to worry that i'll be left alone, there's no such thing as no from you to my requests, with you, i don't need to look back at those dark days and i'll feel secured. With you, i feel that everything in life is almost perfect." Maybe all those were mere excuses.

YOG Holidays

2010-08-12T23:11:00.001-07:00

So today is the last day of sch, pretty boring day at sch, but still, happy to spend the last day with 'em.. Thought of heading to clarke quey with candyce ltr on but last minute changes so i went back home. Shall prepare to head out now to meet S and then head to her hse. Oh man i need to go rm too, daiso daiso~

Friday the 13 today, por pi nothing unlucky will happen? Anyway i'm working tmr and K might be fetching me from work @isetan scotts. Mon/tues would be heading out to town to mug with the girls, of course, it won't be all mugging only lah. YOG holidays, imma make full use of you.

I've lack of sleep and dark circles are appearing now. So little time for myself. I need to plan my days during this holiday seriously. Work, work work and more work! Flea on the 21st!

ABORTION

2010-08-07T09:38:00.000-07:00

Hi, Mommy. I'm your baby. You don't know me yet, I'm only a few weeks old. You're going to find out about me soon, though, I promise. Let me tell you some things about me. My name is John, and I've got beautiful brown eyes and black hair. Well, I don't have it yet, but I will when I'm born. I'm going to be your only child, and you'll call me your one and only. I'm going to grow up without a daddy mostly, but we have each other. We'll help each other, and love each other. I want to be a doctor when I grow up.

You found out about me today, Mommy! You were so excited, you couldn't wait to tell everyone. All you could do all day was smile, and life was perfect. You have a beautiful smile, Mommy. It will be the first face I will see in my life, and it will be the best thing I see in my life. I know it already.

Today was the day you told Daddy. You were so excited to tell him about me! ...He wasn't happy, Mommy. He kind of got angry. I don't think that you noticed, but he did. He started to talk about something called wedlock, and money, and bills, and stuff I don't think I understand yet. You were still happy, though, so it was okay. Then he did something scary, Mommy. He hit you. I could feel you fall backward, and your hands flying up to protect me. I was okay... but I was very sad for you. You were crying then, Mommy. That's a sound I don't like. It doesn't make me feel good. It made me cry, too. He said sorry after, and he hugged you again. You forgave him, Mommy, but I'm not sure if I do. It wasn't right. You say he loves you... why would he hurt you? I don't like it, Mommy.

Finally, you can see me! Your stomach is a little bit bigger, and you're so proud of me! You went out with your mommy to buy new clothes, and you were so so so happy. You sing to me, too. You have the most beautiful voice in the whole wide world. When you sing is when I'm happiest. And you talk to me, and I feel safe. So safe. You just wait and see, Mommy. When I am born I will be perfect just for you. I will make you proud, and I will love you with all of my heart.

I can move my hands and feet now, Mommy. I do it because you put your hands on your belly to feel me, and I giggle. You giggle, too. I love you, Mommy.

Daddy came to see you today, Mommy. I got really scared. He was acting funny and he wasn't talking right. He said he didn't want you. I don't know why, but that's what he said. And he hit you again. I got angry, Mommy. When I grow up I promise I won't let you get hurt! I promise to protect you. Daddy is bad. I don't care if you think that he is a good person, I think he's bad. But he hit you, and he said he didn't want us. He doesn't like me. Why doesn't he like me, Mommy?

You didn't talk to me tonight, Mommy. Is everything okay?

It's been three days since you saw Daddy. You haven't talked to me or touched me or anything since that. Don't you still love me, Mommy? I still love you. I think you feel sad. The only time I feel you is when you sleep. You sleep funny, kind of curled up on your side. And you hug me with your arms, and I feel safe and warm again. Why don't you do that when you're awake, any more?

I'm 21 weeks old today, Mommy. Aren't you proud of me? We're going somewhere today, and it's somewhere new. I'm excited. It looks like a hospital, too. I want to be a doctor when I grow up, Mommy. Did I tell you that? I hope you're as excited as I am. I can't wait.

...Mommy, I'm getting scared. Your heart is still beating, but I don't know what you are thinking. The doctor is talking to you. I think something's going to happen soon. I'm really, really, really scared, Mommy. Please tell me you love me. Then I will feel safe again. I love you!

Mommy, what are they doing to me!? It hurts! Please make them stop! It feels bad! Please, Mommy, please please help me! Make them stop!

Don't worry Mommy, I'm safe. I'm in heaven with the angels now. They told me what you did, and they said it's called an abortion.

Why, Mommy? Why did you do it? Don't you love me any more? Why did you get rid of me? I'm really, really, really sorry if I did something wrong, Mommy. I love you, Mommy! I love you with all of my heart. Why don't you love me? What did I do to deserve what they did to me? I want to live, Mommy! Please! It really, really hurts to see you not care about me, and not talk to me. Didn't I love you enough? Please say you'll keep me, Mommy! I want to live smile and watch the clouds and see your face and grow up and be a doctor. I don't want to be here, I want you to love me again! I'm really really really sorry if I did something wrong. I love you!

I love you, Mommy.

Every abortion is just…

One more heart that was stopped.
Two more eyes that will never see.
Two more hands that will never touch.
Two more legs that will never run.
One more mouth that will never speak.

If you’re against abortion, reblog.

Fairytale alike story, ignore it.

2010-08-07T08:51:00.001-07:00

FML SRSLY. Everyone's ignoring me now. This feeling sucks. I xxx you so much, but i don't want this feeling to stay for long because i rlly can't handle it well. I can't even handle myself well. Not to mention, xxx. I feel so insecure all the time with you. Any moment i thought i could lose you. H8 this feeling so much. That day, xxx and i spent the evening at the beach and when night came, we just gaze at the stars, having you side by side rlly seems lyka dream to me. It's just too perfect for me to handle. Too perfect that i couldn't believe it's real. I rlly wna take you away, to somewhere, only you and me belong to. I've got so much doubt. I can't even trust myself now, much less to say anyone else or even you. I appreciate every single thing you did for me. I'll nv throw away the hearts you fold for me on every bus ride. You're beyond my limits. I can't help myself anymore.

Depressed, xx.

Time would change but some things 'd never change

2010-08-02T10:47:00.000-07:00

I WANT BRACCCCCCCCCES SO BADLY NOW!
Tell me why some girls are so drop dead gorgeous+ hot+ sweeeet! Okay maybe it made me sound like i've a thing for girlies, but nooo, i'm just supa envy of some pwettygirls hehez baibai ^-^

Ohya ohya, regarding my r/s status, i've got countless number of guys/girls prompting me with the same qns, lol. Questions are all about the same: "Are u ok?" "Wht happen?" "Broke up?" "Who initiated?" "Are u sad?" etc etc. Thnks for the concern everybody, but some questions they ask is kind of obvious lol, anyway, i dislike having to reply the same ans to all of 'em, over and over agn. Imagine that.

I wish my wish would come true, 've been praying for it every now and then. I felt so bad about myself now. Rlly awful feeling. Sometimes at the thought of it, i just wna die. 've used so many of my 11:11 on it, so pls made it come true, i need it so badly. Even wished for it by tossing a coin at the marina bay sand wishing for it. Hope it'd come true lyk how true they say it is.

If only, xxx.

2010-08-01T06:35:00.000-07:00

Was sick for the whole of last week but i manage to attend sch every single day.. until friday, and the reason was because, 'm too tired, lol. But it rained heavily anyway, so yeah. Anyhow, we still made it to cine, and all of us were suppose to meet @2pm as the movie starts at 3.30pm, however, almost everyone was late. Caught the crazies with the clique and then we all walked around town. Just another random day, but as usual, we had fun.

Whereas on saturday, was suppose to head to universal studio with k, but we both overslept! Ended up, watching old cow vs tender grass @marina square, headed to Marina bay sands after the show. Waited for the bus to dbg but after 45mins or so, the bus didn't come. Lol. Both of us was like laughing throughout the day, till our cheeks hurts. Imagine that. Okay as for today, intended to stay home to do my bev homework. But uhm.. TOO LAZY, TSK!

ROGER THAT

2010-07-24T23:36:00.000-07:00

Marche on TGIF with @iamlouiss to celebrate belated 21st, which is our first year being tgt. Met up with @lulukoh and his friend @jasminekaedz for a tad. Caught the movie "Sorcerer's Apprentice" @cathay cine and had my frozen yoghurt while watching the movie. Overall the movie was awesome. After the show, we then headed to find cass, ernest and their friend, and went to meet up with @lulukoh and co agn. Walked all the way to plaza sing and bb sent me home. Gr8at day fo' sure :B

Ytd, met up with nichbaby (like finally cause i've not been seeing her for ages), and then we roam around compass pt and headed to starbucks to wait for @lulukoh to "study" but it ended up to h2h talks! We then decided to talk @lulukoh into going hg with us and end up he did. So yap, thy played billard over @hg plaza while i saw many familiar faces and ended up gettin' drunk and vomitted thrice. Luckily yx came to fetch me home and it's my virgin ride on a bike. Haha ok lyk wtf only, i know.

Long long ago

2010-07-16T11:10:00.000-07:00

Pictures from rlly long ago, day by day, some left, some stayed,
some pretended, some continued pretending, somehow time will tell everything.

Bck home not long ago from cp along with @lulukoh, @manthasoh, @maisietann, xinyi, jasmine, and 5++ other guy. Am very tired now. Nights. Ps: Too tired for anything. Note2self: All are the same.

xoxo.

15/July

2010-07-15T06:17:00.000-07:00

When someone calls you a backstabber behind you, is it true that they're already a backstabber themself? I don't know why she can be so nothing better to do. Today marks the day where i realise, who's the one that follows blindly. Shouldn't have sympathise her from the start, no? On the other hand, 've found true friends who get the facts right and follow their own mindset. Sometimes all the happiness turns to unhappiness overnight. For the fact is, noone will ever think for you more than themselves. Noone will put themselves at risk to save you. Noone will ever not betray you in any point of time. Noone cld be trusted.

So tell me, what's left that is real in this world? Nothing.

2010-07-12T04:30:00.001-07:00

Am so angry cause i rlly got so much assignment to complete now! Will get back here once everything is done, most probably day after tmr. Tmr is the deadline bai!

2010-07-11T04:20:00.000-07:00

The more you care, the more you hate.

A post fo you~

2010-07-07T04:52:00.000-07:00

Dear xxx,

You should have known by now how all these started. Initially, i was not scolding you for not picking up my calls and you ASSUME so, and even hurled harsh words at me. I then decided that i've had enough, since you refuse to admit that you wrongly accuse me~ As things turned more complicated (i'm lazy to elaborate), you started 恶人先告zhuang4, that's very obvious, i don't need to say much too. What you've done before, you should know, so i bet you don't have the rights to say me. Instead, speak for yourself. I dare to say i'm clean, you? These few days, hatred got the better of me when we sorta bickered. However, now, i don't feel like giving 2 hoots to you anymore. Whenever we quarrelled, it shows that i/you still cared. I guess we've both given up now. Bet you'll be feeling the same now (too lazy to be bothered about such things). And since i've already decided to block and dlt you from my msn and fb days ago, from that moment onward i don't regard you as my friend anymore. I admit it's part of foolishness to have "argued" back with you, and keep us "entertained". Maybe, it's because we still bothered. But not now, not anymore. We're clear of what we want. So please, i don't want to have anything to do with you from now on. We'll just pretend that we don't know each other at all. I've deleted every single photo, your contact and etc. Goodbye! :)

LIFE IS SCREWED (SKIP THIS POST, YOU WON'T WANNA CONT)

2010-06-28T08:18:00.000-07:00

Everything we do we have to face the consequences isn't it? guess that's life. Hafta face that fact that no matter what you do, someone will be there to complain and comment. Life is so damn screwed, i don't even know who i am now. What's wrong? why were things this way? i don't want to, but, life's lyka game of chess isn't it? Once you make the wrong move, you can't turn bck. you can't turn bck, you can't turn back. These words keep flashing through my mind. Do you know what an impact it has on me? Well, noone knows. I just needa rant it out. Why can't good stuff always stay with me? Problems, please leave me!! i hate everyone, and i mean EVERYONE!! People who lyk to act as if thy care but actually just wna kpo only!! ppl who damn step, ppl who lyk to act until cannt act, ppl who damn proud of themself etc, ppl who lyka sarcastic only!! and esp this: PPL WHO LYKA SELECTIVE ONLY!! Ugh okay okay, need to take a chill pill >:(

ANYWAY, ON A HAPPIER NOTE, GETAWAY FROM THIS THURSDAY TO SATURDAY NIGHT, IMMA ENJOY MYSELF IN THIS TRIP! Ciaoz.

Blog Post For Journalling- A Family Day:

2010-06-25T23:06:00.000-07:00

-Journalling-
CATEGORY: FAMILY
ROAD TRIP TO INTERESTING PLACES/TOWN- MARINA BAY SANDS

Reached the place and started with exploring around the place and taking some photos before heading into the building, snap snap!

Went into the buiding and took even more photos while exploring "Marina Bay Sands". Saw people taking the boat ride to tour around the place and mommy and i decided to snap some photos acting like tourists! ^^

Headed to Dhoby Ghaut-Plaza Singapura to have our dinner @Xin Wang Hong Kong Cafe with daddy and mummy and headed home after some window shopping.

Q1. MY EXPECTAIONS:
(A): The reasons as to why I chose this activity is to 1)Spent more time with my parents as we hardly go out as a family 2)Understand my parents better through the time spent together and heart to heart talks with them 3)Explore "Marina Bay Sands" as I've heard about it but had never been there before.

(B): What I felt mattered in this activity is 1)To enjoy the trip with my family 2)Exploring the Integrated Resort developed by one of the world's biggest gaming companies, Las Vegas Sands 3)Gain some learning experience

Q2. WHAT I ENJOYED MOST ABOUT THIS ACTIVITY:
What I enjoyed most about this activity would be the quality time I spent with my parents and through this trip, I could even understand them better through our family bonding. To me, spending quality time with my parents is not about what we do, but it's about the moments we had together as a family. My mother showed me extra care by going around to search for plasters and buy it for me as my legs has blisters caused my new shoe. Little things like this makes me happy, because they're my family, and i know that they cared for me, thus, I enjoyed this activity with their companion :)

Q3. REFLECTION:
(A): Challenges overcame: -Had to endure the blisters when walking around!
-Having to walk an extra mile as we got the venue mixed up.
(B): What failures and successes means: To me, failures only lies in the eyes of those who failed to think that they can be successful. Only through failure then will there be success.
(C): What life skills have you learnt from the activity?:-
(D): In which way have you become a better person?: I've learn to hear from my parents and try to put myself in their shoes to understand them. I've also learnt that to give and take is also essential to prevent any conflict with my family and friends.

2010-06-25T08:04:00.000-07:00

WANT SOME OF THIS?

I WANT IT TOOOOOO!!
Saw this at xx's blog, i want to get it lyk SOON!! Great for gifts and all~ CUTE!!

2010-06-25T07:19:00.000-07:00

Mundane life~

Went marina bay sands with papa and mammy today! H2h talk with mammy!! Love you mammy ^^ Blisters caused by my wedges and mammy rlly make me supa touch, hehe. Dinner @dbg xin wang hong kong cafe. Drop by the shop to visit nichbaby!!

Anyway, on a side note, i need to dye my hair bck to black/slight red before sch starts agn, damn. Say bye to red hair~ Ok the person just texted me saying i cnnt be their hairmodel cause my hair's not black!! !@$!@%!&^& RAH!!!

Life's lyk this. I wish i was rich ^-^

So, goodbye.

2010-06-23T04:08:00.000-07:00

Hi all, this was azzura day:
Followed by Kbox @ Cineleisure yesterday:

Went to fep for dinner with the above people and realised that we did not pay at all when we got home! Laughed the hell outta me, lol! Went off earlier with grace and jess while the rest headed to starbucks. Wanted to meet z but decided not to and was kind of bored at home so decided to rang baby up and he came over to accompany me for the night. Was suppose to watch soccer together although i h8 soccer very very much, but end up he fall asleep and i got scolded by him by trying to wake him up!

Anyway, guys, please do me a favour by clicking 'like' on this photo, thanks!
http://www.facebook.com/NugenoMen?v=wall#!/photo.php?pid=13042848&id=369813835541&fbid=10150205932210542

Toodlez! Xoxo.

2010-06-18T02:49:00.000-07:00

Happy Chalet Day▲▼ More pictures @facebook.com/violetsarebluee! Ciaoz!

Broken hearted

2010-06-13T07:15:00.000-07:00

I must be bersek that day. Yes i ate more than 3/4 of it. Haha having class chalet tmr! Not very excited afterall due to some family stuff. Anyway i might be staying over at the chalet tmr or heading to ph then bck to the chalet agn or baby's crib. Tues would be honey's birthday celeb at her hse so i'd prolly head down to boon lay area with lovelielust. Stay updated via twitter.com/violetsarebluee! Apparently, thr's smth wrong with my twitter widget. Toodles!

2010-06-13T01:06:00.000-07:00

Azzura's music suck but it was fun overall. Saw lots of dearies. Ok bai. Need to change this space's layout like a SOON! Out for dinner with my parents. Been ages since we went out as a family already hehe.

2010-06-08T19:24:00.000-07:00

haha this space is so dead. imma lazy pig. i'm too lazy to upload any photos besides all the above ones from eons ago and already in my desktop. swear i'll revive this space next wk. more photos still in my phone!! i almost forgotten the existance of my blogger already lor! anyway i overslept today despite petitemaryjane and ros and dad trying to wake me up. sch starts at 12 today, niace or what? oh well, as usual i'm late agn. gotta rush.

2010-05-08T08:04:00.000-07:00

days.were.awesome.

d.a.m.n. t.h.a.t. b.i.a.s.e.d. t.e.a.c.h.e.r!

2010-04-30T07:29:00.000-07:00

Okehh, yesaa ima super happy now cause i know how to play with this template alrdy lol! okay i know i noob!! BAI.

2010-04-30T06:32:00.000-07:00

Pictures from last/lastlastwk?
Finally i'm not so lazy to upload em alrdy!!
I know this is a dead blog, noone's reading anymore!
But oh well :/

Mummmy just bought bck another box of sushi!! 2box of sushi in a day! ^^
Ended sch today and waited for baby and went bck to his hse tgt.
Enjoyed being in the same sch as baby!!!!! he'll always be thr whn i needed him.
BEV sucks, i don't seem to understand you :(
Okay bye, sushi here i come onnnnoomommmm! TSK, i need 2diet man!

2010-04-29T07:17:00.000-07:00

I'm trying my best to stay happy but somehow i'm still weak, tsk! Cannot carry on lyk this szemin!! I'll blog more with tons of pictures either tmr or when i get my new lappy k! Bye :DDDD

2010-04-23T01:49:00.001-07:00

DEAD BLOG!omg, i want this!
jajaja, baby's lappy just died on me. so baiiiz to dead blog!

Eenie meenie mo lover

2010-04-14T05:13:00.000-07:00

you can't make up your mind mind mind
mind mind, so don't waste my time time time time time

It's over! nomore knot in my heart anymore. at least i'm happy.
First week of sch: first day, everything sucks, i don't even feel lyk fitting into a new environment in sch and i only know baby, adrain happen to call me to meet in sch, and afew classmates only. Second day was bttr with mr pohrong and afew more. Let's hope sch won't be as boring as it seems. However, i can feel the tension now :/

I feel so no-life nowadays. Everyday late, rush, eat, lessons, tm with baby, home, slp, eat, etc.

Bring me some nightlife okeh? I miss holidays now. sch sucks. 8am lesson tmr, sucks!

is it me or is it you? i just can't stand it, okeh i think it's me :(

2010-04-04T11:10:00.000-07:00

Just a short update before i slp. midnight movie on fri: rec2, sucks. All of us just felt lyk vomitting when the show ended. Stay over at baby's place after that. 2movies in a day including "when in rome". Going to acc baby to simei tmr. might shop around for my shoes too. Fred perry or close up sales??

2010-03-25T09:32:00.001-07:00

Mad happy today cause bb came over my hse today and we had mac breakfast delivery! Been craving for macbreakfast for a very longlong time. But i've a pig friend named @saphybitch so we always miss the timing by either: overslept/wake up early but at the wrong timing. Stupid much?
So, i have a sense of accomplishment today cause, my boyfriend came over not to eat only but cook for me and even tidy my room for me! Can win cleanest room award in the hse alrdy! After getting nagged for so many months or even years.

Tmr i'll be a goodgirl and wake up early. Meeting bb and/or sherminthebitch. Idk. Either way, my life is still complete! Don't need for upsize ^^

This is for u: cheer up no matter what happens! I know it's terrible to have diseases and esp seeing your loved ones being so sick/weak, but be strong k aw chin chai!

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2010-03-21T09:02:00.000-07:00

it's taking forever to upload thru phone + shitloads of trouble!! here's two. shall upload the rest tmr morning if i can wake up on time to go baby's place. it's been quite sometime since i last saw him. doubt i'll be able to wake up early to upload photos and go his hse, but i'll try anyway. LOOK AT THE TIMING NAO. Lol. I must slp early. today was exceptionally fun with sis! long time since i last saw her. k bai i need to slp now.

2010-03-18T21:39:00.000-07:00

Kidnapper was an awesome movie, super touching: rated 4/5! Super scary though. It shows how much a father can do for their child, i cried lyk a loser in the movie even though it's only a show, keke. Ytd was: bishan to collect my cheque> dbg to change my clothes> cine for movie> heeren to chill> arab st for sheesha next> junction> home.

I'll upload all the photos later on with my phone, if i have the time. I'm lazy to upload to my com ^^

Memories. Slit. Shattered. Gone..

2010-03-15T19:56:00.000-07:00

hi i know this web is dead omg this time it's not blogger's fault it's my phone's keypad prob. I just anyhow uploaded afew pictures and now it's gone so i'd to upload agn!
life for me? i srsly need to rant. it's true how you'll see the true colour of people after sometime. I tried believing, hoping, but in return you stab me in the back. wht's my effort for? sometimes i admit i'm just too naive.

i tend to get sick of certain things lately.. or is it because i don't want to face the same old stuff/people anymore? maybe a new environment can change everything. But my heart always says no. why are girls always so emotional!! Be strong.

HOMO

2010-02-28T07:36:00.000-08:00

Work was crazy, apart from that, life was smooth sailing.
Happy belated birthday yeeling, happy birthday chai.

2010-02-22T06:53:00.000-08:00

I really don't know what i want... (inserts thousnads of question marks here) numb, maybe im already numb now. holding on is easy but letting go takes a hundred years, (if u get the drift). Contented enough with wht i've nw, but i knw such gd things will nt last, or do thy? hell will soon be the only option left.

Went tamp today to meet h> s came over and we went to get her mc> met n for a tad while> c came over to meet us> home.

2010-02-20T09:05:00.000-08:00

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2010-02-17T06:09:00.000-08:00

boring life, i suck. maybe it's fate's fault, i know that you don't know what im talking but nvm i just need someone to really hear me out!! noone understands what im rly thinking right? silly me. i hope all thedse ends soon :>

2010-02-15T07:35:00.000-08:00

Decided to upload the sweetest thang on earth! (Y) to ppl who asked me on msn to take neopwint with them!!

2010-02-15T06:07:00.000-08:00

Neopwint with L on valentine's celebration, will upload the rest once L sent me them. Am crazy over neopwints somehow.
I love to complain non-stop to babylove, and bitch non-stop with darlingirl! someone just drew smth super sweet for me on msn should i upload it???!

Days were great with L, S, and H. Bai nian is not as fun as previous years, why?! Ang paos are still alright but it's the gatherings that matters right? L will be going to aunt's hse with me tmr, can't wait!

2010-02-13T06:08:00.001-08:00

People come and go don't they? No one will stop and think for you. Anyway happy chinese new year. Watched valentine's day at cine yesterday with b and took neoprwints like agn lol! Wanted to vomit so much on the train back to sk but still met Shermin for sauna. Everything was pretty cocked up but it was max fun afterall. Pass h the cookies i bought for him instead of baking it myself thanks to last minute changes again. BYE into your face! HAHA.

2010-02-09T22:01:00.000-08:00

everything suck, lunch today was disaster, tears with fried rice, awesome shit. failed to get things done today :(

2010-02-07T20:41:00.000-08:00

Woke up and got bloody pissed by unreplied text etc. Abit lazy to go baby's hse but i miss him >:

2010-02-06T07:48:00.000-08:00

When you wanted to stay, i made you leave (for good). When you wanted to leave, i made you stay. Contradicting shit. Watching hms ep11/7 now! I tend to forget which episode i'm at and so i put it as "117" at my pm as a reminder and TOFU started to pm me and say i'm haolian blahblahblah and he 59, 59 days with his gf, whatehfk. Totally different things! Anyway today is he and his gf's 2nd month so i'm told by him to wish them at facebook and blog LOL!

Tmr i'm accompanying L to town! Bye.

2010-02-05T23:52:00.000-08:00

Finally done with my blog, spent the whole night doing it yesterday till 3am, until my eyes go z.z Yesterday shermin came over my hse in the morning and we went over to cp for lunch after that i went to work. work suck balls. Sometimes i wonder why those people can be so 2/3/4headed LOL! They can gossip about anyone/anything under the sun, pro-ness!

Anyway daddy bought popeyes home for me today ^^v

I hope B don't get into navy if not i will curse the whole entire navy till they die! LOL. Valentine's day and new year is coming+ our 7th month, like very excited. Have to cherish the times with B incase he get into the stupid navy. Omg, chinese new year is jsut a week away and i can already smell money rolling into my fat pocket, mwahaha.

I don't like the new facebook userface, does anyone has the same problem?

Last few days went KK hospital with B to visit my baby couisn, effing cute! Got back my chio phone from nokia like finally, nomore lao pok phone to use anymore fwahaha. Might be bling-ing my ipod soon hehe. Cousin's at my hse now rushing me to let him watch his cartoon on you-tube now ok i g2g before he whines and grumbles non-stop agn.

Gah ga ohh la la,

2010-01-28T06:57:00.000-08:00

photo spam

pizzahut + emicakes for dad's birthday ytd, marche on the 21st, laughters with dearest colleagues, life's lyk this.

thick-skinned and fake people are all around, so hardcore, see my twitter for more rantings.

Unhappiness equates to emptiness?

2010-01-14T08:49:00.000-08:00

Hahaha, happen to chance upon "our" used-to-be blog. The blog that once makes you tears, LOL.

Anyway today went 313 with @iamlouiss to get his formal shirt. Headed over to cine for pastamania instead of MARCHE thanks to @iamlouiss :/

Intended to watch "new york i love you" but decided to give it a miss. Walked over to fep instead. Sidetrack: I WANT TO GO MARCHE !!!

Shopped lyk mad along with louistang. Everything "buy lor!" only. LOL.

Headed back to sk to meet louis(2) and co for awhile before heading home. Life is so boring.

Nyway tmr meeting louis(2) again, shall chiong twisterfries before it ends again. Kiasu much.

Given up,

2010-01-13T07:17:00.000-08:00

gotten my o level results arrgh fk i flunk so badly too bad i won't post it here thanks to so many inquisitive people! spam calls, msg, omg jitao.. inquisitive tothemax uh!

met sis, melissa, chester and happen to saw louis with yiting and co so we slacked tgt around cp with afew more unknowns ok pictures another day.

town/sk with b tmr?, changi with sis/louis on fri?

Memories,

2010-01-09T08:23:00.000-08:00

My ear hurts!!!!! Tmr's the release of o level results omg nightmare day after day. Chalet tmr, to go or not to go depends on my results though. Anyway thanks to those who wished me goodluck for the results. Staying home tmr to chiong hi my sweetheart!

i thought twits already extinct?! omg omg :/

FTW?

2010-01-05T07:49:00.000-08:00

K i know it's very cool and nice to show off,
but.. isn't it normal to have surprises lyk THIS once in awhile?

Why need to show off? Ok, you abnormal.

WALAO TODAY SI EH HAPPY WITH MK LEI!!

My f21 blouse arrive already, tmr go collect, luckily can change the day.

However, today my phone get spammed lyk what only!
FEEL SO IRRITATED BY THAT SOMEONE THAT I'VE TO OFF MY PHONE. DON'T ASK ANYMORE!!

Happy 2010,

2010-01-03T18:45:00.000-08:00

Went 313 ytd with h, then went cathay to meet n and co, watched old dogs.
Happy belated birthday to melvin ong bao le and joey tan! K i'm late for work BYE.

Last day of 2009 :(

2009-12-30T08:30:00.000-08:00

Went to louis' house today and he actually sleep talk! Okay, he's going to kill me if he sees this :/ But i don't care because i nearly go nuts this afternoon just to wake him up lol!

I went to google it and tada:
"When one comes across a person who is sleep talking, sleep walking, or having a night terror, there is no benefit to be gained by waking her up, and that in fact can often wind up being quite traumatic for her. Instead, it is better to guide that person back to bed and make sure she is safe."

SORRY TMK! :(

It's past midnight nao.
Which means a day left to 2010 2010 2010!!

2009 is filled with memories but i hope that 2010 would be a better year ;)

2009-12-29T07:42:00.000-08:00

if only time could be turned back for us.
what's more to say than hurt?
do u still rmb the days we had?
how i hope it would stay.
it's sad to view our past on your archives yeah.

i seriously owe it to fate for having such blood related kins?
don't like! i can die anytime from suffocation here!!

went zoo ytd, like fun only.
but cab here and there plus ticket= si eh chor.

today i totally forgotten to bring my wallet out!
luckily i met s earlier on, if not i sure can't get to tpy.

and there goes my FREE entrance to supper club tonight!!!!!

2009-12-28T22:03:00.001-08:00

supper club tonight? yes or no?

Meh-rie christmas 2009,

2009-12-25T07:07:00.000-08:00

Tarts bought by dad:

club @ alcova sucks tothemax!

Somehow in a night everything changes, sorry it's too late for anything nao.

And i really can't stand it when some people are SOOOOOO calculative trying to make people's life miserable only!! TSK! I even cry when i told mummy about what happen, thanks to you for treating him like this, this is for you: -'-!

17th disaster,

2009-12-18T21:46:00.000-08:00

Happy birthday mummy,
happy birthday cherine,
happy birthday rachel,
and happy birthday jack!

Is money that impt?
Why do people have to use it to measure rs?
Does it mean that only under money condition will love & trust come along?

Anyway, i won a kut3 soft toy at the marina square arcade!!

17thDec is a day i'll never forget even if i lost my memory.
Humans are too self-centred, that explains why they won't even try to understand you.
Now i know who's the best to trust, and who to not.
It seems that only in tough times then you'll know who truly cares. Hmmz/

Let the 4toes do the talking:

女孩的心，就像大海的针

2009-12-10T03:03:00.000-08:00

had not been updating so here's a summary:

-bought a new phone, and i am still not used to it yet.
-went to melvin's hse on tuesday midnight and i throw the money he gave on the floor instead of my bag, only realise it when i'm on the cab home, one word dumb to end it off. l4d and slack all the way thr. I WANT L4D!!! SEE THIS LOUIS!!!
-found a new job at m)phosis, like cool only!
-didn't get to go town with baby for this whole week :(
-shall go town with him tmr before he head to work @hilton then i'll meet my madeline^^
-my whole week is so cramp!! LAST MINUTE UPDATE: WORK TMR!! NO MEET-UPS OR ANYTHING,
WOULD LOVE TO MEET MY LUV SSSW ASAP!!/

ciaoz.

Day 3,

2009-12-03T23:33:00.000-08:00

very boring day today. decided to stay at home cause it's raining, might be meeting nbaby l8r on, but anyway if i'm not lazy i shall bath and prepare to meet huimin and grace now. i feel lyk sleeping nao cause of the weather. laugh lyk hell due to some funny shit earlier on. ok i shall have to endure for afew more days and my baby will be back! everyone seem to be so tied to their bf/gf. but i'm so alone nao cause you're in fking THAILAND!!

i am berry bored and tired. i want to sleep. i need a job so badly.

yesterday went town with nbaby, didn't bought anything, AT ALL. sad much. anyway, after town, we head to bugis, thereafter, we head to tampines and i rly should control my diet. everyone's been asking why i put on weight, oh tianz. not long after, ahbee and his ~~dog~~friend arrive and we slacked before they sent me to the bus stop. it was a lovely day.

ballzringgg~

Day two,

2009-12-02T17:41:00.000-08:00

ytd was at town with nbaby and baby called, saying that he's at the airport. he's going to bkk and will only be back on saturday night. shop around town before heading back to sk to meet sis and xying.

Day one, which is yesterday, w/o you, i feel so uncomfortable. But at least you called me for awhile.

Day two, which is today, you text me in the early morning, and we managed to chat for quite sometime ^^,

Adapting,

2009-11-28T22:33:00.000-08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SAMANTHA SOOOH S.W. LUV! C:
babyluv, we've been through sosoooosoo much, and i luv u so much! see you on monday!!!! insert kisses*

met tofu, luv, and claudia with 3 of tofu friends on friday, headed to compass height, chill & slack! it was rather enjoyable afterall.

saturday, went dbg with madeline to build a bear>centrepoint to meet melvin but failed>heeren>ion to meet nbaby!>bugis to shop!

spent quite a sum, but it was worth it cause we enjoyed! chilled at starbucks before heading home. thanks for the treat! ^^

i guess that is all.

have been facebooking the whole day & i'll be heading out for stingray l8r on, lyk coool only!!!!!!!!!

2009-11-26T23:49:00.000-08:00

i'm at baby's hse now, was suppose to meet luv to swim, however, both of us overslept!

if you've been following my twitter, you would know about the BAD NEWS, i've lost my job.

was at baby's place when i receive the news, jitao shag. anyway might be working with nbaby at uniqlo next week.

hopefully i can get the job?

am at baby's hse now. no pictures cause i've not been touching my com all this while.

ANYWAY, tmr is the 2nd last day of work! shall cherish the time spent with colleagues, hmm. will be heading to town with madeline aftermath.

and, might be meeting nbaby after her work tmr at town, if she don't have O.T. hmmz.

luv's birthday is just 2 days away! winks* ^^

using baby's lappy so no pictures again, ciaoz.

2009-11-24T17:48:00.000-08:00

am working now, so bored.
time passes so slowly, time doesn't fly at all..

i

don't know

what to

type anymore!!!

one word, BORED!!!!!

25thnov, 7th.

2009-11-19T03:23:00.000-08:00

work was very slacking, was facebook-ing the whole day, gosh! laughing and shouting lyk nobody's business.

at least the good thing is, money came rolling in +
we were having fun & laughters all the way.
looking forward for my pay so that i can buy the many things i wanted!

at least, i don't need to go around asking for jobs,
or go for stupid interviews anymore
pls don't ask me for jobs anymore, unless you blind..

luckily melvin told me where to get the jobs,
if not i MAY be asking around just like your..

i totally hate rainy days, especially when i end work.. THE END.

2009-11-18T19:39:00.000-08:00

I can do

415
clicks

in 30 secs.
Are you faster?

hmm.. some facebook game./

2009-11-17T02:14:00.000-08:00

"haeundae the deadly tsunami"

during break

clementi,

cookie:

heavenly CHOCOLATE ttm!

skipped work yesterday to go clementi. went to baby's hse while he was still sleeping. went to bought my hair dye tgt after lunch and acc baby to the saloon for a hair cut. rented dvd and went back his place to get my hair done.

thanks for helping me to dye my hair TWICE, love you TTM! watched the dvd with baby and went home right after dinner.

today, working was quite boring, but saw quite afew people there. suggested having long john's for lunch with colleagues, and end up i got a sore throat now. i was sneezing while working and one of the patients asked me to see a doctor, LMAO. i think i'm going to get sick soon!

anyway quite afew people been asking me whether i'm going zirca ytd and i replied no. i don't think i can go clubbing anymore since i'm working almost everyday. heard that it was super pack, so yeah, glad that i don't have to bear with the sweaty legs and the crowd.

2009-11-14T06:35:00.000-08:00

found this very old photo, looks lyk housefly?

hey everyone pls relink, the reason i've change my url again? simple, because it's throwmekisses, which also stands for TMK.

baby is working now, and i can't meet him this weekend even though it's my off day. so today i made a very unwise decision to meet JOEY, because i went all the way to bedok because i wanted to get my hair done, but end up, joey called me and say that he needs to go for lion dance. so i alight the bus and walk over to his block and meet him and kokhao. waited for the bus for very long, and then i decided to go town alone, instead of going liondance with them.

it was a rather unlucky day. after town, i decided to head home but i didn't buy the hairdye, reason because, when i was about to buy, baby called me and ask me not to buy. he say he'll help me buy and dye next week, so happy that he'll dye for me, AGAIN. hope that this time the result will be better. i want the FRENCH CINNAMON, that's it bye.

oh ya, someone moving hse again, how many times?

2009-11-10T05:55:00.000-08:00

past few days been: town/bugis with nbaby, mac to study with sq & dawn but failed miserably, gossiped and scold someone instead lmao. went to baby's place ytd and after that, finally met joey after quite some time. anyway, cherinev's flying on friday, so hope that you've a fun time there and i really don't have the time to meet you although you tried to make time. i've got a job now and i'll be starting work tmr, yes it's tmr, so i guess my cell's going to stop ringing with people asking me out anymore, and i'll be bored to death being no-life. i don't want that but anyhow, i've already signed the contract -'- lol it's super dumb cause i've got no freedom from now on. another thing is, the job starts tmr and i'll be missing my o level paper because of a eff-ing job, dumb i know. it's too late for regrets.