this post is just for myself. after all this, shang1 hen2 hai1 zai4, hei1 huo4 bai2, zhi2 you3 shi2 jian1 neng2 zheng3 ming2 and why do humans come back only when you already once lost it? it's not an object where it will return when you lose it. it's feeling plus emotions. hidden emotions? hard? contradicting. mei2 ren2 dong3.. goodbye..